Tired- III

I’m tired of always being abandoned for “better” people,

I’m tired of always coming last,

I’m tired of being an outsider:

Evicted;

Forever banging on the doors and punching the walls of the houses of The Others,

Screaming to be let inside of their Utopia

I’m tired of being lost and having to find my way back home,

All on my own

I’m tired of lying everytime someone asks me whether I’m fine

I’m tired of feeling sick all the time:

Emotionally sick,

Socially sick,

Mentally sick

I’m tired of getting my hopes up for things which aren’t ever gonna happen

I’m tired of being so damn antisocial

I’m tired of hearing the voices:

The voices I hear everyday

I’m tired of being tired 

I need redemption