Tired- III

I’m tired of always being abandoned for “better” people,

I’m tired of always coming last,

I’m tired of being an outsider:

Evicted;

Forever banging on the doors and punching the walls of the houses of The Others,

Screaming to be let inside of their Utopia

I’m tired of being lost and having to find my way back home,

All on my own

I’m tired of lying everytime someone asks me whether I’m fine

I’m tired of feeling sick all the time:

Emotionally sick,

Socially sick,

Mentally sick

I’m tired of getting my hopes up for things which aren’t ever gonna happen

I’m tired of being so damn antisocial

I’m tired of hearing the voices:

The voices I hear everyday

I’m tired of being tired 

I need redemption

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8 thoughts on “Tired- III

  1. Life of a Teenage Ranter says:

    So raw and beautiful, I can totally relate to when you lie about how your feeling. I think most of the times the words “I’m fine” are misused. They’re kind of like a replacement for the real problems in life you want to talk about, but just can’t find the words. 🙂

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    • ES Ordinary says:

      Thanks you really understood this. I always wonder if people actually care when they ask if you’re alright or if it’s just a gesture. If I was to tell them how I really feel, then that would cause conversation: and I don’t wanna talk. Thanks for your awesome comment 😄

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