It’s unbelievable that last night I cried myself to sleep
The pain kept me up until 1 AM,
Cause I couldn’t get you out of my mind
I thought of what I would say,
About the fact that I had to be mature in this situation
All this time I was telling people I was in love with you,
I was lying to them and myself
But it seems like our love is outdated and overdue
It’s as if I’ve had you on a leash for such a long time
And even when I claimed to have already let you go,
It wasn’t as if I actually had
Sometimes I hate how I’m too nice,
I let everyone trample over me,
And I keep telling myself to deal with it,
That it isn’t my time yet,
I have every reason,
Yet no reason to be angry
Why should I be the barrier that stands broken- hearted between your happiness?
Why do people care about me so much?
And everyone makes it so obvious that there’s something between them
It’s like everyone wants me to be upset,
Everyone wants me to do something,
To break them apart,
But I’m not that kind of person
Why do people want me to break up something so perfect?
If anything,
I should be angry with myself,
Angry that I had so much faith in something which would rip me apart,
Not just once,
But twice
Angry that I went back to something which ended badly before and would be bound to happen again
Angry that I didn’t choose properly
How could I have done this to myself?
This is all my fault
If anything I deserve this,
I should’ve seen it coming
People warned me,
People told me to be aware
Why did this have to happen to me?
your blog is just really awesome…
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Aww thanks so much! 😄❤️
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This is a very relatable poem for me. Recently, I got out of a toxic relationship myself and everything you said was pretty much my thoughts during the first two weeks of our breakup. Occasionally, the feeling of being angry at myself and the “why did this happen to me?” question will pop up but I am usually able to calm myself down.
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I’m glad I was able to reach to you through my poem. It was difficult to understand and put up with the fact that a person I thought I was in love with had feelings for someone close to me. But all I wanted was for them to be happy and if she makes him happy, then he should go to her. I’m so glad you were able to get over it and I know you’ll be even stronger in the future. 😊❤️
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That is very mature of you. I know it is easier said then done but you are doing amazing! And thank you for the encouragement. 😭😊💕
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You’re welcome and thanks I really appreciate it. I believe you are doing awesome too and just remember that things could’ve been even worse. What you had before was just a taster of love, once you find that true person, you’ll have the full course. 😊❤️
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Omg thank you! 😭😭💕
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My pleasure 😇
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This is so amazing. I relate to this wholeheartedly. I got back into a relationship that my friends knew was bad for me and ended up in one of the worst times I’ve experienced in my life. In love with how you wrote this! Thank you for writing this piece. ❤
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Thanks so much! I’m really glad you enjoyed this piece: it all came from the heart ❤️. I’m really sorry about your toxic relationship and I know and pray that you are going to receive better in the future. Right now, focus on yourself and your happiness cause as long as you have faith in yourself you can get to high places you never thought existed! 😊❤️
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Beautiful❤😊Very well said.🎆☺☺
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Thank you! 😊❤️
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Welcome☺
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Very beautifully written.
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Thanks so much! 😊❤️
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Your poems are amazing! I love both the writing style and the contents, I think you should write a book or something like that!
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Thank you so much! I have been writing a book but I haven’t really been committed to it; but hopefully maybe in the future. ❤️😊
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