It’s unbelievable that last night I cried myself to sleep
The pain kept me up until 1 AM,
Cause I couldn’t get you out of my mind
I thought of what I would say,
About the fact that I had to be mature in this situation
All this time I was telling people I was in love with you,
I was lying to them and myself
But it seems like our love is outdated and overdue
It’s as if I’ve had you on a leash for such a long time
And even when I claimed to have already let you go,
It wasn’t as if I actually had
Sometimes I hate how I’m too nice,
I let everyone trample over me,
And I keep telling myself to deal with it,
That it isn’t my time yet,
I have every reason,
Yet no reason to be angry
Why should I be the barrier that stands broken- hearted between your happiness?
Why do people care about me so much?
And everyone makes it so obvious that there’s something between them
It’s like everyone wants me to be upset,
Everyone wants me to do something,
To break them apart,
But I’m not that kind of person
Why do people want me to break up something so perfect?
I should be angry with myself,
Angry that I had so much faith in something which would rip me apart,
Not just once,
Angry that I went back to something which ended badly before and would be bound to happen again
Angry that I didn’t choose properly
How could I have done this to myself?
This is all my fault
If anything I deserve this,
I should’ve seen it coming
People warned me,
People told me to be aware
Why did this have to happen to me?